I’m currently on my fourth year in college, sadly, I’m not an official 4th year, weird right? Well, to simply put, I’m irregular. I’m twenty-two years old, turning twenty-three this November, and often I feel like I’m already too old, yet I’m still stuck in my college department. I might sound like I’m complaining, actually, in reality, I’m just bored and often tired of my studies. However, just because I’m tired and bored, doesn’t necessarily mean I should give up my college.
I’m writing this because I feel accomplished despite my weariness from school, accomplished in a way that I’m too blessed to complain. Looking back, when I was a freshman in our department, I was so clean, neat, and a refreshing-looking gal. I go to school with polished school shoes, ironed uniform, young and innocent face masked with baby powder. I and my classmates, which I consider as my group of friends, often wondered why our seniors were so haggard-looking. We used to say, “What’s with them? They looked like they haven’t taken a bath!”
A true comparison between a freshman and a Senior Student
I didn’t know then how it was like to live like a Senior. I didn’t know then how it was like in our Department. I didn’t know what it was like, not until when I became a Senior myself. Years and years passed, and when I climbed up the stairs of our College Department, I began to see the great change, the big revelation–
- I’m no longer the clean, neat student
- I’m no longer the fresh-looking first year from before
- I’m no longer ironing my uniform, nor polishing my shoes
- I’m no longer that student who participates in every Intramurals, time is gold, and therefore, Intramurals’ period means rest time from overloading projects
- I’m no longer the shy woman, but the loud woman who laughs at every joke all because I lack sleep, thus, everything seems too funny for me
I’m not the fresh-looking first year anymore! I’m past beyond repair–oops–I mean, I’m past beyond that freshman years! I’m a SENIOR myself! And when I look in the mirror, I often remember those days wherein we used to say, “Look at the higher years, they’re so haggard, so stressed out.” I was like, “Okay, I am feeling what they’re feeling before.”
Looking back, and writing now, I feel like I wanted to make a documentary about our college life, I think it will be fun. Lots of pressure and lots of fun.
Are you…a college student, too? From what school then?
Jenine Silos 